I love going to the beach pretty much on any day, but especially when I’m needing to clear my mind. It’s especially healing to walk in the salty waves and find a spot to meditate. I needed this deeply a couple weeks back and did just that.
It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon; the sun was sparkling, and the weather was perfect. I was wearing a t-shirt and leggings and had to pull up my leggings as it was warmer than I expected.
As I walked along I gathered a few heart shaped rocks ~ I collect them, and they find their new home in my love corner of my bedroom.
I was particularly excited to find a sand dollar as I strolled the wet sand. I’ve never found one before! Unfortunately, as I found my meditation spot, I noticed that I had accidentally broke it in half against the heart shaped rocks. I was bummed. I tried to see if I could glue it together, but a tiny piece broke separately, and it wouldn’t come together right. I noted my frustration to Spirit briefly, but then went about my meditation, spreading out my legs to soak up the warm sun rays.
After my meditation I slowly walked my way back to the San Clemente Pier, again letting the waves lap at my feet.
Just as I was passing T-Street, a famous surfing spot, a man said to me, “It’s a beautiful day today!”
I responded, “Yes, it is.”
He then handed me something and said, “Here, this is for you. She’s a little beat up, but still beautiful.”
It was a sand dollar. The face was broken out a bit.
As soon as I had told him thank you, he said, “Do you live here?”
“No, I live up north.” Laguna Hills is north of San Clemente, so, I’m not lying. 😉
“What are you doing here?” He questioned.
“I’m just enjoying the day.”
“It is a beautiful day. Are you single?”
“Yes, I am.”
“Would you like to go out sometime?”
“No, I don’t think so.” My response came out quicker than I had planned, but it was the right response that I wanted. “Thank you for the sand dollar. Have a magical day.”
And I turned and continued my walk towards the pier.
Now, that may seem pretty straight forward to most people, but to me, it’s was a beautiful moment realizing I have made some great strides in my growth where relationships are concerned.
I don’t get asked out very often. And there was a time when, even if I wasn’t interested in the guy, I would have felt obligated to go out with him because he gave me a gift.
Even a tiny little sand dollar.
Or I would have wondered, “Could this be the guy?” He clearly was not. But when you are a co-dependent person, when you are a desperate person, you wonder. You question.
I asked myself if I should keep the sand dollar. I would have preferred her to not be broken. I knew though, in keeping the sand dollar that I would be reminded of the encounter every time I looked at it.
I remembered the sand dollar that I had found earlier. How it breaking was a sign of what was to come and how to handle the situation.
I looked behind me to make sure that he wasn’t following me. He wasn’t. My hand at my side, I gently opened my hand and let it go.
As I was expressing my happiness at my growth to myself and Spirit, I came across a feather and a single rose petal. A beautiful sign from Spirit.
I’m so grateful for each reminder of growth from Spirit. Oh, and don’t forget the sunscreen ~ I’ve now got funny tan lines on my legs! Haha!
Make sure that you are celebrating all of your steps of growth and have a magical day!
Wow! I love this story so much, it reminds me of myself so much. Codependency is real. And I still struggle. What a beautiful story my friend thank you for sharing
I’m so glad that it resonated with you Maureen! Codependency is real, but with continued work you can move through it. Magical blessings <3