I love going to the beach pretty much on any day, but especially when I’m needing to clear my mind. It’s especially healing to walk in the salty waves and find a spot to meditate. I needed this deeply a couple weeks back and did just that.
It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon; the sun was sparkling, and the weather was perfect. I was wearing a t-shirt and leggings and had to pull up my leggings as it was warmer than I expected.
As I walked along I gathered a few heart shaped rocks ~ I collect them, and they find their new home in my love corner of my bedroom.
I was particularly excited to find a sand dollar as I strolled the wet sand. I’ve never found one before! Unfortunately, as I found my meditation spot, I noticed that I had accidentally broke it in half against the heart shaped rocks. I was bummed. I tried to see if I could glue it together, but a tiny piece broke separately, and it wouldn’t come together right. I noted my frustration to Spirit briefly, but then went about my meditation, spreading out my legs to soak up the warm sun rays.
After my meditation I slowly walked my way back to the San Clemente Pier, again letting the waves lap at my feet.
Just as I was passing T-Street, a famous surfing spot, a man said to me, “It’s a beautiful day today!”
I responded, “Yes, it is.”
He then handed me something and said, “Here, this is for you. She’s a little beat up, but still beautiful.”
It was a sand dollar. The face was broken out a bit.
As soon as I had told him thank you, he said, “Do you live here?”
“No, I live up north.” Laguna Hills is north of San Clemente, so, I’m not lying. 😉
“What are you doing here?” He questioned.
“I’m just enjoying the day.”
“It is a beautiful day. Are you single?”
“Yes, I am.”
“Would you like to go out sometime?”
“No, I don’t think so.” My response came out quicker than I had planned, but it was the right response that I wanted. “Thank you for the sand dollar. Have a magical day.”
And I turned and continued my walk towards the pier.
Now, that may seem pretty straight forward to most people, but to me, it’s was a beautiful moment realizing I have made some great strides in my growth where relationships are concerned.
I don’t get asked out very often. And there was a time when, even if I wasn’t interested in the guy, I would have felt obligated to go out with him because he gave me a gift.
Even a tiny little sand dollar.
Or I would have wondered, “Could this be the guy?” He clearly was not. But when you are a co-dependent person, when you are a desperate person, you wonder. You question.
I asked myself if I should keep the sand dollar. I would have preferred her to not be broken. I knew though, in keeping the sand dollar that I would be reminded of the encounter every time I looked at it.
I remembered the sand dollar that I had found earlier. How it breaking was a sign of what was to come and how to handle the situation.
I looked behind me to make sure that he wasn’t following me. He wasn’t. My hand at my side, I gently opened my hand and let it go.
As I was expressing my happiness at my growth to myself and Spirit, I came across a feather and a single rose petal. A beautiful sign from Spirit.
I’m so grateful for each reminder of growth from Spirit. Oh, and don’t forget the sunscreen ~ I’ve now got funny tan lines on my legs! Haha!
Make sure that you are celebrating all of your steps of growth and have a magical day!