I am deep within again.
Sitting in a corner hugging my knees.
This is not the first time I have been here, and surely it will not be my last.
For I have chosen a path of enlightenment, self-discovery, and to claim my true self.
The veil has been lifted and the light shines brightly.
There is no hiding now.
I am still raw and stinging ~ as if my naked body has slid down a glacier.
In the other corner I see the skin I have just shed.
I don’t care to look at it because the truth of wearing it sends shivers down my spine.
Waterfalls stream down my cheeks, as I look deeper still.
Words such as judgment and jealousy scroll through my mind.
How did I ever allow myself to put that skin on?
It had never felt good, chaffing and making me cringe when it would show its ugliness.
Memories pour into my mind of trying to fit in, insecurity, self-doubt and limiting beliefs.
Moments when I would begin to allow the injustice to creep in only to shut it down because that was easier.
I take note that the things I was judgmental about are things I didn’t necessarily like about myself.
And jealousy, well that was wanting it for myself and not having the self confidence to move towards it, or simply not understanding divine timing.
Letting my ego believe that if I kept the veil over the ugliness, kept it to myself, it wouldn’t hurt anyone.
But it does hurt ~ consciously and unconsciously.
I am grateful the veil has been lifted.
I take a deep breath.
Suddenly in the other corner I notice a new skin.
Lighter, brighter, more true to who I am and am wanting to be, but most importantly filled with unconditional love.
A warmth begins to wash over me.
I stand up, brush myself off and walk towards the new me.
Beautiful post, May Lynne. You've got two fingers on the pulse of an energy that the world is feeling right now. Your poetry holds such healing and honesty. Crystal clear, as I'm sure this new blog will continue to be as it unfolds. Thank you for speaking your truth. It encourages me to be brave and be me! 💗
I know what you mean! I really think one of the biggest challenges in this journey is not to judge ourselves as we learn our lessons and become more enlightened. I love that Maya Angelou said "When you know better, do better," because it really helps me when I reflect to know that I did the best at the time that I knew how to do. Whenever I know better, I do better. This is a very pretty and honest post MayLynne. – Nicole